This morning while I was worshipping and spending time with Daddy, the song You love me anyway by Sidewalk Prophets played. Have you ever just sat and listened to what God was singing to you? I do it all the time but this time it was different. I was singing it to God. Thanking Him for what He did for a person as dirty and wretched as me. The lyrics of this song just played out my life perfectly. While I was worshipping I started to write in my journal because that seems to help me get my thoughts out. God was speaking through me, to me. It was kind of crazy and only something God could do. So I am going to let you read some of it. I pray that you learn something as well!
3/23/12
Little by little our roots are being intertwined. I can actually see and feel us growing as one. God has literally stolen my heart and is replacing it with His. The best thing EVER! Cause my heart is so dirty. It's been bruised, stripped, cut, thrown, and writhering. But God's heart has made me new. A new life, heart, and everything. God how you love me! No matter what my heart looked like. You still thought of me as you were raised up on that cross. You thought: She is worth it. Even though she will run from me. Even though she will hate me. Even though she will be ashamed of me. Even though she will run to men to try to find comfort. Even though she will lie, steal, cheat. I still, and always will, love her. No matter what. She is mine. I will make her new. She will come back to me. She will fall madly in love with me that it will spill over her into other people. She is worth the running, calling, weeping, and fighting. I love her and she will bring glory to my name. She is my daugther. Forever.
I still fight with Daddy but I already know the answers. I am able to get over myself because I know that He has the situation in His hands. I try not to do those things I used to. It's a battle of my heart that I struggle with everyday. It hurts but I know in the end it's worth it. HE IS WORTH IT! In your name, Amen!
God loves you too. NO MATTER WHAT! Please remember this. It's His greatest commandment. To love not just others or yourself, but Him as well. And as always I love you too!
I am going back to Jacksonville in a couple of days to do another school that I feel He is calling me to. I will keep up with my blog at least once a week so don't worry. You will get to see what God is doing. Peace out!! God bless!!!!
