I need God more. Every day I need Him more. More than the
song I sing. More than the air I breathe. More than anything, I need You more,
Father. I have come to understand, recently what it means to completely depend
on God every day for everything I need. He gives and takes away. I have a week
and a half left and I STILL need my God to carry me through each day. I still
can’t do it by myself even though I think I can because I have already been broken
from a lot of things. I need to ask Jesus every day to help me with my family,
friends, issues, problems, pridefullness, joy, my stubbornness, and getting the
motivation to get out of bed. I would not be able to do it if I didn’t
continually ask for God’s strength each morning. I can tell a difference in both.
If I ask, I have this supernatural strength that could only come from God. When
I don’t ask, it takes everything I can muster up to be able to make it even to
lunch time. I struggle with family more and I get so angry I want to spit. That
does not come from God. That comes from my selfish pride and thinking that I
can do things by myself for a while. Well ya know what… I CAN’T DO IT WITHOUT
JESUS! No matter how hard I try I am always going to fail my God if my strength
doesn’t come from Him. I still fail Him daily when I ask but at least I am
learning and growing from it. I just give the devil a bigger foot hold when I
let him take my anger.
I have a few more days left. I can see the horizon of this chapter.
I still have to finish strong. I can’t stop now. God gave me direct orders to
go. So when I go I need to keep up my part of the deal and ask for help. I need
to remember that no matter how hard, no matter how tough, no matter how
uncomfortable, scary, big, stinky, amazing, long, short, skinny, tall, and maybe
handsome people and places may get I need to know. I need to tell myself that
God has set before a task that He has placed ahead of me. He is not going to send
me to a place where He isn’t. He is going ahead of me to show, grow, and
dominate India. I am a child of God. He is my King. Jesus is all I need. All I
will ever need. Nothing else can satisfy me the way Father does. He has transformed
my heart into a beautiful, scarred piece of art. I am never going to be the
same person I was yesterday, or today, or tomorrow. He has given me all the
tools I need. Now I need to use them for His name. For every tongue, tribe, and
nation. I am going to do great things for the Kingdom of God because He is
working through and in me. I love Jesus!
I can’t wait to see what else is in store these last few days.
I hope some of you make it out to Greensburg Community Church this Sunday because
if you would like to hear more about my upcoming adventure and what else Father
is doing in my heart, I will be speaking during education. Please keep me in your
prayers as always and may God touch your heart today. Love all of you and God
bless!
Therefore, go and
make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of
the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have
commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.
~Matt. 28:19-20~
~Matt. 28:19-20~
