Faith through the Storms

I know it has been a few weeks since I last wrote a blog. I am really sorry. I have had so much going on these last couple weeks that I had to put a few things aside. I think what this entry is going to be about is you. I want to tell you a story about me first.
I have honestly been the lowest I have ever felt since being away from home. It's been really tough because I just wanted my family by my side. I was lonely. See, I was leaning on something that I now know I can never have. This thing was so much a desire of my heart that I let it get more attention than my God. I leaned so much on it that when this thing realized it was tired of me, I fell to the ground. And I fell hard. I begged for it to come back. I struggled to get through my days and thought my life couldn't get any better. I didn't realized that Someone was right behind me, ready to help me get up.
I had a friend tell me that I needed to get out of my pity party and realize that God was waiting for me to call on Him. I was scared at first but then realized that He would still love me for ditching Him. Father still loves me enough to pick up the broken, nasty pieces of my heart and make them beautiful again. He cared enough to bring me up in His arms and tell me "It's going to be ok." He knows that my heart is broken but He can fix it. God has done so much more than I or anyone else could have ever done for me. Even though I put Him second on my list He still showed compassion on me. He promised me He would never leave me. He forgave me and even though I am still broken from this thing I have Christ standing next to me. He is helping me overcome my own selfishness and making me new again. He loves me that much. He will not leave me during this storm.
So I guess what I want you to do, is think of a time in your life where you left God for a bit but then He brought you back to Him. Message me on facebook or leave a commet. Whatever you do I just want a little encouragment that He is working in your lives as well. Peace be upon you and your family!

The big word: TRUST!

I love being back in Jacksonville! It's so weird because a country girl like me, loving the big city! Anyway, I thought I would share a little thought with you that the Lord has been putting on my heart the past couple of days since being back. There have been a few things that are worrying me lately, like my next step after SOFM. I want to know where I am going to be in the next couple of years. It is driving me crazy because I keep thinking that maybe I can't hear God, or He is being to slow, or I am just not in tune with Him anymore. I don't know why I am freaking out because I know it's in His hands but there is still this little doubt in the very back of my mind that I can't get rid of. The other thing that is keeping me unsetteled, is about a person. I want to know where my life will be with them. I want to know if they are in my future or not. IT'S DRIVING ME CRAZY!!!! I just want to know. I pray for dreams and visions all the time for God to show me His plan. I know that's in His hands too but sometimes I just get so frustrated I yell at God. I need to be able to trust Him with all that is in my life. Not just the things that I find convenient. He has the very interests for me in mind even if I can't see the big picture yet. I know He has dreams for me, that I could not even imagine yet, but I just have to trust Him. That's what it always seems to come down to. Trusting Father...
So now I am challenging you, reading this. Have you fully given everything to Daddy? Is there something in your life that is keeping you from moving forward in your relationship with Him? I'm challenging you this next week to really search your heart, praying that He reveals those things to you. I also want help to keep me accountable for myself too. Maybe if you have time shoot me an email or even mail me a letter of encouragment. I LOVE getting letters! I even want to help you with keeping you accountable. Let me know if there is any way I can pray for you! God knows you're worth it and so do I. I love you all very much and thank you for keeping up with what God is doing in my life and others. Peace be with you all!!!!!