My life vs. His life

It sure is good to be back in Greensburg! Corn, real trees, family, friends, oh and hot weather too! All of these things I have been anxious to get back to. I have thanked God so much for blessing me with such an awesome support system at home.
So after I got that off my chest there is something that I feel like I need to share with you. God has been showing me lately that He wants to get personal with me. You hear sometimes how people talk about Him being a personal God but that didn't really sound good to me. To get personal with someone means that people have to have a deep relationship. It involves getting down, dirty, sticky, and knowing the good, the bad, and the ugly. It involves communicating which I am not very good at in the speaking to people department. And frankly, it means knowing the deepest, darkest secrets of someone. Just like a best friend. God wants to be more than a best friend though. He wants to be the first one I run to when I get scared. He wants to know how I feel about something. He wants to be worth more than a go-to kind of guy. He wants to have all your love. He is a jealous God.
He has been challenging me. Asking me why He isn't the first one I go to when I feel sad. He asked me a week ago that if my family turned their backs on me if I would still follow Him where He lead me. That got me thinking. If everyone I loved told me that if I left and did what God told me to do, would I be strong enough to stand in my faith, in my trust, in His life, to continue on with my God? My prayer has been asking God to show me the areas of my life that I still need to give to Him so that I can have the deepest rooted relationship with my Father as I can. Like I said, I know it's going to get very messing. I also know that God will be standing there with me. If everyone else leaves me I will still be fine because I know that God is still with me. That will be enough for me because He is all I need. I want Him to be where my help comes from. I want Him more than I want to feel good or more than my desire to go to the nations. I want to get personal with Him.
So what I want to leave you with is this. Have you gotten so close in your relationship with God that He is the first one you run to when things get bad? If not, then me too. I am still trying and learning too. It's not something you can learn over night. Life is a learning process. I just want to encourage you to pray and seek after Him in it and see what He wants you to hear from this. I will be praying for you as you read this post.

Thoughts, thoughts, and more of my thoughts

Two weeks. That's all it takes for my friends and I finish school. We are about to take to the field all that we have learned over the last 3 months. For me, it's been the most frustrating, challenging, hardest, funniest, happiest time of my life. God has stretched me far beyond my own limits and well into His. I think differently, speak differently, see myself differently and have been broken from my flesh. I am not the same person from the last time you all saw me.

Over these past few months I have been praying and seeking God in what He wants my life mission statement to be. He wants His love to be the thing that people see when they think of me. This is a big answered prayer because I have been asking God to over flow my cup so much with love that whoever I come in contact with would feel and see His love. That when they think of me they think of Jesus. They think that she has something that I desire for myself. So love is my theme I guess you could say. Love is what compels me to get up in the morning. It compels me to forgive, move on, grow, and love more.  This is why the bible says “love is the greatest of these commandments.”

So I just want to leave you all with three final thoughts. First, ask Father what it is He wants your mission statement to be. What is the theme of your life? Second, let God stretch you out of your comfort zone. It hurts but He knows what is best for you. And lastly, love. Everyone. Every day.

See ya’ll in Greensburg soon! Love and blessings!